AAAAAAAAAAAAA WHAT WAS THAT?!

Amazing introduction I know- hi it's been awhile again oh my god I was NOT READY FOR COLLEGE!! I just finished my first semester like a month ago and I've only recently reeled back in from it all, (and I'm currently doing a summer class which I'll get into later,) and wow that got hard.

From the couple bits and pieces I've dropped on this website, it wouldn't be a shock to learn I was a "gifted kid" when I was a kid, (ugh I might make a blogpost for how much I don't like this term but it's really the only word I have to describe my experience, that or autistic but I don't have a diagnosis lol-) So as you may imagine, I am very not used to studying, I don't think there was a time I really actually studied. The most I'd do was listen in class and even that was tall order. Usually, I'd completely sleep through class, (several hours at a time, most schools in Somaliland have the model where the teacher changes class rather than the students,) or just make full on illustrations. But my teachers never cared because I had good grades.

But of course, there's a time in every student's life where the material starts to become hard, and my first semester of college... wasn't?? I found my Calculus 1 class to be easy, Chemistry was okay, and my Intro to Engineering class was just a free A for pretty much everyone. So where did everything go wrong? Why, the very thing I foreshadowed at the beginning of the year! (And in an eariler blogpost,) TIME MANAGEMENT! God, my whole life I have absolutely sucked at time management. I've always been chasing buses, spending too much time in the bathroom, having a teacher assigned to me as a kid just to make sure I got ready to leave school on time. Hell, I was late two weeks for my own birth!

I thought I'd grown out of this as an adult and I'd be fine. NOPE. My grades tanked because I never completed the homework on time, always kept showing up late and thus missing quizzes, and just in general missing a lot of class. I know it's not that bad to be late in college, but I actually really like math and I get very heartbroken when I walk in and I've missed a chunk of lecture. And on top of being bad with time, I'm also very forgetful. Which is what lead me to forgetting my first Chemistry exam and I walked in totally unprepared, and got a D. Yikes. And for my second Chemistry exam, well lets just say I 'forgor' the right bus to take and ended up in a completely different area and got so lost and missed the exam outright. And to top it all off, I wasn't even aware until it was too late that I had missed 300 points of homework because I didn't notice. And of course this professor was very strict and unforgiving, and lowkey got mad at me and said I was 'making excuses'. Yay. Look I get it, it's college, I'm an adult,and I completely understood that this was all my fault, but dang I was just ASKING! He was just rude to me all semester long. And the guy was sexist too so great.

Okay I lowkey went on a rant there, my bad. I just really needed to get that off my chest. God, I already don't like chemistry, so this was just so ugh. On the contrary I had a really awesome Calc 1 professor, and I'm excited to take him again this fall Inshallah. My Intro to Engineering professor was awesome too, and her class was just soooo reassuring. Like I'm 100% sure I wanna be an engineer now, she solved all my doubts and actually talked about the reality of being an engineer.

Okay REALLY off topic, if the material was not that hard then why did I have to study so much? Simple, I WAS VERY BEHIND. There were sooooo many assignments and the homework was so long, especially at the end. I was studying for hours and hours, chugging Monsters and Celciuses like there was no tommorrow. (Not even in univeristy yet, and I have a caffiene habit already? Am I cooked?)

And for some reason... I really loved that? I loved studying and grinding out work, it was so exhiliarating! I kinda want to do it again, (which is funny because I might have to do it again.) Idk, I'm just a huge nerd, which my mom loves to tease me about. And I think being a procrastinator is just in my genes...

Well this is a great blogpost about my time in college so far. This has been mostly academic based, like oh my God I haven't even talked about my "booming" social life on here! Maybe some other time. I feel like I'm forgetting something though...

Oh right, I ALSO TOOK AN ENGLISH CLASS.

My fourth class I took, Composition 1, was completely online and asychronous. Because of course I want a three day weekend! During COVID, my middle school went completely online and I never did any work ever and failed all my classes. But I'm older now, I'm a responsible adult! I got this!...I failed that class. Well techincally I withdrew...because I was failing LOL. I literally got a text message that was like "your grade is failling and it is mathematically impossible to pass this class ever, talk to ur advisor and withdraw asap." Which sucked the life out of me. Honestly... I'm not that upset about it. At the time I was DEVASTATED because I thought I'd be losing my finacial aid, but I actually wasn't since I'd already completed most of the semester. So the relief from that made me not upset about needing to retake this class lol. And the cool thing about college is that you don't have to tell your parents anything! To this day my mom doesn't know that I withdrew from English lol. I never lied to her, I just never brought it up and my mom also has a bad memory. (I can't tell if she's declining or if I'm just old enough to notice.)

Anyways that was my first semester of college, and I'd say I had an overall good time. The only way to get ready for something is to actually do it so I've learned. As stated previously, I'm taking a summer class for a prequsite for the fall. And I may have not noticed that this was A FOUR HOUR CLASS. Now I know I said I like math (and this is a Calculus 2 class btw) but OMG I DO NOT HAVE THE ENERGY FOR 4 HOURS!! And I have sooo many homework assignments due in like three days it's absurd??? And I think the material is starting to get hard... that's what people told me about Calc 2. God, integration by parts is KILLING ME. At first it was all fine but then when you throw in trig functions and e? Genuinely need to s-s-s-s-stst-s-t-t-STUDY!

Anyways, goodbye everypony, stay dueling, gotta go fast... screw you guys I'm going home. (check it out i found out how to make sparkly gifs)