Whew, a tiny bit late for a new site update but lately my life has just been super hectic. A lot of things are changing and my life is just... confusing right now? Like I know being a teenager is confusing for everyone but I kinda feel like im in a uniquely weird situation? IDK I can't say much rn cuz privacy reasons so maybe for some other blogpost.

Today's blogpost is just gonna be me rambling about whatever. I kinda set a weird expectation for myself to have in-depth and topic focused posts, and while I do love those, I also just wanna yap. It might be short, it might be long, idk I write these as I go straight into notepad++

Over the past couple of months or so, I've been a fan of a flash series called "Sonic Highschool Asylum", which you should check out as the pilot released recently. I'm a bit obsessed as I'm a huge sonic fan and an animation lover, and I grew up with a lot of Sonic flash animations so I'm kind of in love with the series. Honestly without all those Sonic animations from the 2000s/2010s I probably wouldn't be an animator since those directly inspired me to make my own crappy MS Paint animations as a kid. (Sad that a majority of them are gone because I never posted them, but I'm kinda glad I didn't. I made them for fun and not for the numbers, which is wholesome.)

Anyways SHSA has inspired me to make my own animated web series, which was my childhood dream. It's called "Miscellaneous High". Yes it's a series set in highschool BUT this existed before I knew of SHSA and possibly before it was created. I doubt anyone has seen it, but it was originally a short Roblox series I made in the Roblox game "My Movie", where users can create their own short little movies. Basically, Miscellaneous High is a school where various characters from different intellectual properties go to school to train and power-scale. The idea is kinda cringy, which if you've been on this site for this long then you're probably the target audience LOL. What can I say? I loooooove crossovers! I'm not going to go too in-depth here, because I want to at least have some writing and concept art done for it first before I yap about it, but I'm super excited for it and I have a bunch of scenes and stories in my head already. You can watch the first three episodes on My Movie if you'd like, my username is milkandcookies1000, (and friend me too, cus why not? :3) And of course, the protagonist is Yugi Mutou because I LOVE YUGIOH!! And it actually fits really well. And yes, Bakura is there too BECAUSE I LOVE BAKURA!!

Speaking of how much I love Bakura, I made a shrine for him! Yes, it was about time for my next html project, since this site is almost done. *sniffle* THEY GROW UP SO FAST! Depending on how long I decide to procrastinate the update for this site, it may or may not be up rn. IDK click this link and see if it's there lol. My love for Bakura simply cannot be contained in a measly blogpost, he needs his own site! Seriously, I'm a little insane for this character that it kind of impacts my life in a not-so-good way... Just fangirl things!! :')

Anyways let me yap about my Japanese progress now. I offically know ALL N5 kanji!! I actually found this out by watching this video and IT WAS SO WEIRD? I didn't expect to completely understand the entire video, it's such a trippy feeling that only language learners understand. I'm super proud of my Japanese and I'm halfway to my new years resolution of becoming N4 level! And learning kanji and new words is genuinely so much fun (even if I break my Anki streak every two days. My brain is too full of kanji to remember to keep a daily streak.) Honestly, when I first ttook interest in learning Japanese at 11, I thought kanji was the hardest and most convoluted, but now? I mean, yeah it's hard I'm not going to lie, but I've grown to love kanji and it makes so much sense to me? Like, think about English words for a sec. Just by looking at them, you can pretty much make out how to pronounce them. But the meaning? Pretty much impossible if it's not a compound word. Like the worlds 'clock' and 'cloak' have only a one letter difference, yet have completely different meanings. Japanese on the other hand, gives you next to nothing on how to pronounce a word, but the kanji makes it so easy to remember a word's meaning and even guess the meaning all together! And... I kinda prefer kanji. GASP, I can't believe I said that! Am I a masochist??

I wish I could say the same about Somali though. I know I've learnt more, but I still can't piece together a full sentence. And to be honest, I don't receive much enjoyment from learning Somali at all. I don't like listening to podcasts or watching vlogs, I want to watch anime! And there's barely any resources which makes things harder. With Japanese, every new word makes me excited, every new thing I can read or any little thing I can understand gives me a high that lasts for days. But with Somali, I just think about how far I have left to go. I asked my mom for help learning but she doesn't do much. She doesn't understand how Somali works or its grammar since she went to school in Arabic, and she doesn't speak to me in Somali even though I asked many many times. It makes me very upset, she's been making fun of me for not knowing any Somali my whole life and when I finally try to learn she doesn't even help. I love my mom so dearly, but I just wish she would help me instead of mocking me or being ashamed of me. I feel like such an idiot for not getting Somali, which just makes me not want to learn any Somali. With Japanese, I feel like a fricking genius! Idk anymore. Sometimes I wish our family spoke Spanish or Italian instead so I could have an actual chance at learning the language. It's to the point where I feel guilty for learning Japanese even though I love it so much and I'm so passionate about it. Idk... I guess I should stop making excuses and watch some more Somali BBC instead of Himouto Life LOL! :')

Erk, I don't want this post to end on a sad note. I hate being sad online, it feels embarassing and it makes me look like an attention seeker. But there are no algorithms at play here so I guess it cancels it out? I've been playing more Sonic Adventure recently, almost done with Sonic's story. Thinking about making a Miscellaneous High website too. I'm going to college soon Inshallah, that's nice. Sucks I never got a high school graduation because my STUPID EVIL SCHOOL cancelled it. And I'm not being an angsty teenager, that school was severely sexist and the principal beat up a kid. And the teachers weren't even qualified to teach, I had to learn everything on Youtube and Khan Academy. Geninuely need to make a blogpost about my old school cus THERE WAS SO MUCH WRONG WITH IT that it's completely insane. Okay I wanted to end this blog on a good note, but now I'm just angry. I'll just put a cute gif here and hopefully that will suffice uwu